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yousei_awayuki
18 January 2006 @ 05:43 pm
Well Wyatt and I are back from Maui and now school begins!! Fun fun!
It actually isnt so bad really.
Schedule:

Monday:
Weight Training
Theatrical Voice Class
Career Planning
(Soon to have) Nutrition
Tuesday:
Psychology
Wednesday:
W.T.
T.V.C.
C.P.

I did have an online Forestry class but I'm going to drop it. Psychology and Nutrition interest me more. =D
 
 
result-: hungry
 
 
yousei_awayuki
04 January 2006 @ 11:36 am
Well I wont be online for 11 days. In 13 and a half hours I will be on my way to Maui with Wyatt. So I hope everyone has a happy rest of the break and I hope to talk to everyone when I get back and I plan to have a lot of pictures.

Talk to everyone later!
~Kasey
 
 
result-: energetic
 
 
yousei_awayuki
29 August 2005 @ 10:11 pm
Well today was the first day of college. It went pretty well. My Human development class will be a bit overwhelming but I will live. And OMG I LOVE MY ART AND DESIGN CLASS! It is literally the class of my dreams....even though we are working with Macs. But we have Adobe photoshop CS2!!!!!!!!!! I could have left when I finished my work at 8:50 but I stayed till 9:35 with Bee and Rach. Everyone had left by then. I was working on my color isolation of the tree god. Tree god displayed below!



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It isnt as good as I hoped it would be...but I made it pretty good. XD I acidentally made him look like a Tree Demon for a bit! But yes!! I love my Tree God! <3 Who says I cant be absolutly in love with my first boyfriend! .\_/.

Ya well, uhm....bored now since I don't have anything FUN to do after that class. Tomorrow is going to be a hassle. Got double english unless I can get into Art 4A! Wish me luck! =D
 
 
result-: hyper
 
 
yousei_awayuki
24 August 2005 @ 01:51 pm
Well now where do I start this off. Hmmm...well yesterday Jen called me up cause she had nothing to do for an hour and a half. So we went out to lunch and ended up at McDonalds. Halfway through eating my Chicken Selects I started to feel sick. My stomach was hurting and I started to get a bit of nausea. I just brushed it off thinking it was just my stomach being a bastard. I took Jen back to school and picked up my brother and came home. By now it had gotten worse. The nausea was harder to ignore and the pains got worse. Well lucky me I had to work the same day too. So I pulled myself together and drove off to work. The entire time I was at work it felt like hell. Just talking to the customers without my voice cracking in pain was hard. At about 4:20 Carol told me to go home. I just felt as though I might puke anytime. So I got in my car and drove home, all the while trying to keep myself from passing out or puking. When I got home I fell on my bed and hoped someone would come home soon. Half an hour later my mom and brother came home. My mom told me she was taking me to Emergency Care...I protested a bit because I really hate hospitals.

We got to the hospital quickly and they werent real busy so we got in really fast. They made me put on that dorky gown too. The doctor came in a asked me a few questions and felt my stomach for where the pain was. Then a nurse came in and had to give me an IV. Ohh god am I afraid of needles. And what was worse is the nurse could find my vein...or well she could but the needle wasnt puncturing it. I was biting my fingers and trying to focus on something else. She took my blood and then hooked me up to the IV. I sat there for about an hour singing a variety of songs to get my mind off the IV. I think I sang Celine Dion, Shania Twain, and a bunch of Moulin Rouge songs.

After about an hour they came in and told me the results of my blood work. I had a high white blood cell count. They though I might have appendicidus. (I cant spell that right) And they were going to have to do a Catscan. When they told me what they were going to do in the catscan I about died right there. They took me to get the catscan.....and afterwards I felt violated...that is all Im going to say. And then they took me back to the room. Then my mom, my dad, Wyatt, and Wyatts Mom came in to visit me. The meds that the nurse gave me sort of knocked me out a few minutes later. But I heard while I was passed out my dad was showing Wyatt my baby pictures!

When I finally came to the doctor had arrived to tell me what it was I had. I had a ovarian cyst. He prescribed some nausea medice for me and sent me home. By then I had been in the hospital almost 5 hours.

And when I got home...I went straight to bed. Then when I woke up this morning it felt like I had been hit by a semi. Right now Im trying to massage my neck and back because they hurt. But yeah...that was my day yesterday.
 
 
result-: sore
 
 
yousei_awayuki
22 August 2005 @ 05:35 pm
Okay I'm a bit bored so I'm doing some MeMeGens to get my mind off of things. Enjoy and have fun with them. XD

Your love... your kiss... your touch... by blackangel692
Name
Username
Your love is...Forbidden
Your kiss is...Seductive
Your touch is...Awesome
Your eyes are...Windows to your soul
Your smile is...Always lighting up
Your body is...Sexy
You are...Very sexual
Quiz created with MemeGen!


What Icons are for you?(Thank you for #1!! Please check out my other Memes!!) by ladyallie
Username
Favourite Colour
Sex
Your Love icon is...
Your Sad Icon is...
Your Happy Icon is...
Your Angry Icon is...
Your Food Icon is...
Your Animal Icon is...
Your Random Icon is...
Your Cartoon Icon is...
Your Sexy Icon is...
Quiz created with MemeGen!



Your Inner Gangsta by crash_and_burn
What is yo name?
Yo gangsta name beHoneyfresh
You ride around in aA pair of 1962 Roller Skates
Yo gangThe Meatloaf Pummelers
Yo shoes beBathroom slippers
Yo dubs be dis big, fool1,796
How much money you got?$6.44229996643607e+26
How gangsta are you, bitch?: 31%
Quiz created with MemeGen!


Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a8
your best quality isyou help friends in need
your worst quality isyoure vulnerable
this is becauseIts who you are
Quiz created with MemeGen!



Your Love Life by lpfloatsmyboat
Name/username/nickname:
favorite color:
best physical quaility:everything!
best personality trait:you don't follow the croud
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now?yes!
when will you get married?March 26, 2015
your kiss is:passionate
People date you because:you're kind
Quiz created with MemeGen!


What is the real meaning behind your name? by punkashcrayon
Name:
Meaning:To shoot staples at a trash can.
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At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter
Your school name
Your name
Your job will bePresident of a small country
You will be worth$724,766
Everyone will think youcry yourself to sleep at night
Quiz created with MemeGen!



Your Superhero Persona
by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero NameThe Ferret
Super PowerCan See Into The Future
EnemyMichael Jackson
Mode Of TransportationUnicycle
WeaponSporks
Quiz created with MemeGen!


What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?Your lips
What makes you pretty?Your figure
What makes you loveable?How dorky you are
What makes you fun?Your love for everything
What makes you irresistable?Your flirtatious nature
What makes you cute?How you laugh
Quiz created with MemeGen!


Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...)
by sparkledee
Name
Your Secret Kink ThingWhips.
Your Sexual StrengthYour sensual massage...
Your Sexual WeaknessYou're scared of butt plugs.
Your Likely STDYou're clean!
How Many Partners in Crime?7
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.......How many? o.o


Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn
Your name:
Weapon of Choice:Chain gun
Your Favorite Target:Inanimate objects
Your Kill Count:1,890,895,089
Your Battle Cry:"I got mad skillz, yo!"
Years You Spend in Jail:37
How Much Money In Damages You Cause:$24,668,322,986,695
Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 57%
Quiz created with MemeGen!


Muahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!

What is a good quote for you?
by grlinterupted
Name
Color
Say what??"sigh"
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SIGH??? HOW PATHETIC!


What Random Asian Are You? by WhoWhatWhen
Name:
You are
The Stereotype you match is,Driving very slow.
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Im gonna have nightmares now! O.O

Who were you in a past life?
by Kat007
Name:
Birthdate:
Favorite Color:
Country:
You were most probably:Yourself, only taller
If not then you were:Julius Ceasar
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What will your Funeral be like?
by rashock
Username
You will die by:You always were kinky in your sex life and took it just a bit to far. You died over doing breath control, blood play, or some other strange kink.
Death Date:November 7, 2005
Number attending your funeral?26
How much will you leave to friends and family?$3,678,134
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.....o.o


A very "special" dictionary. by lily22
Look up:
Definition:The sound made thousands of hairy little legs crawling up one's nose. (The screaming sound that follows is not part of it.)
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I wish for the death of Kevin!


What Disney Princess Are You? by xsoimpossiblex
Name
Age
Favorite Color
Princess
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XP

What will your kids be named? by failed_x_senses
Name
SonJoel
Sons middle nameJoshua
DaughterAlexis
Daughters middle nameJosie
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Well the girl name is cute I guess.

Become a God or Goddess.
by zerogirl
Name:
God/Goddess ofFear
Element:Water
Animal Companion:Eagle
Weak againstEarth
Weapon:Foil
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Foil? o.O

Okay...I should stop now!! Im going to concentrate more on bitching Kevin out for calling Wyatt gay.
 
 
result-: aggravated
 
 
yousei_awayuki
22 August 2005 @ 12:59 am
Lately it seems like my actions have been putting the people close to me in so much pain. The simplest things I do seem to make things skyrocket. And even though I think I'm helping someone they get angry at me.

To get to the point, things have been increasingly dramatic all around me ever since I started dating Wyatt. No it isnt his fault for the drama. It is just, I admit I have been quite lovey dovey and am practically attached at the hip when it comes to him. But for one, it is because this is my first relationship. And two, I'm absolutly head over heels for him and he crazy about me. But it seems, in achieving this relationship friends have gotten jealous. Just jealous of what I share with him. I try cutting down on my lovey dovey attitude but everyone is still pissed at me. I know I lack common sense sometimes, but I dont mean to hurt anyone. I try to include Wyatt in things because he is still everyones friend, whether Im dating him or not. I just never thought finding love would put people in pain. I hate it how nothing I do makes anything better. It just makes them worse.

I always hated it when people called me an idiot or a dumbass even if they were joking. But guess what, they were right. I am an idiot. I fuck up everything. No matter how hard I try I just somehow mess things up. My mind still find it hard to register what is fully going on. Even though I understand practically everything. My judgement and decisions still never turn out right.

Right now Im probably not making much sense....my mind is just totally crammed full of things. I am getting confused over the simplest things and I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like crying and beating the crap out of inanimate objects till I cant feel my body anymore...or even think. Why is it that I make peoples life hell? Why doesnt anything make sense anymore?

I just dont know.
 
 
result-: frustrated
 
 
yousei_awayuki
19 May 2005 @ 03:15 pm
Oh my god! It is finally over. I did my senior project speech. I actually didnt do to bad on it. I went over the time limit though. ^^; My speech was over 10 minutes long. But hey the judges liked it so who cares. They really seemed to like the video I made. And they were all really nice. I was so nervous about my speech and in the end I did a good job. Though during the whole speech my hands were shaking a lot. I dont think they notice. One of the judges first thought I was talking about Dungeons and Dragons because she saw DDR. It was kind of funny! XD But hey no Senioritis will really set in. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Senioritis.......sounds like a STD. o.O WooOoooOooOOoOOoOo! I cant believe they think it is going to be sunny tomorrow for the Senior Picnic. XD It is gonna be cold and wet and weird. T_T I wanted it to be warm and sunny damnit! DAMN TSUNAMI FOR CAUSING SUCK WEIRD WEATHER!!!!!!!......You know what Im gonna go get starbucks. After see Star Wars Ep 3 at midnight and not getting home till 3 and then the whole senior project presentation I think I need a little frappucino....however you spell it. WeeeEeeeEEeEEeeEEeeE!!!!
 
 
result-: bouncy
lovesong-: Computer Buzzing-NU Library XD
 
 
yousei_awayuki
06 May 2005 @ 11:18 am
You know I'm just having one of those day where you just want to bang oyur head repeatidly against a hard concrete wall. And you wanna know why it is one of those days. This damn Graphics Design class. It ruins some of my happiest days.
Okay here is the deal. When a movie is PG and made by Disney dont you think it is a good movie, the school doesnt care if you watch it, and it doesnt need to be previously viewed by the teacher. Well we were trying to watch Nation Treasure. Which by the way is PG and a Disney movie and Mr. Mott comes up and tells us to turn it off and wont leave till we do, while the guys next to us are watching things like Family Guy and other shows that were on MTV or something. But no, he tells US to turn ours off. I called up the administrator and asked them if PG or G movies needed to be previously viewed and the lady said No, those movies are okay. I had her talk to Mr. Mott and then he hung up and just sat there staring into the abyss. I asked him if it was okay if we watched it now and he looked at me and very rudly said "No". This is fucking bullshit. He is a fucking sexist little short man that need to be put in a tiny little cell with a big guy named Bob who likes to wear pretty pink dresses. Once I get my ROP Diploma at the end of this month I dont give a shit what he says. I just gonna tell him he can shove it up his big, ugly ass. He is abusing his power as a teacher, and I cant do a thing about it because Im a student. What happened to our rights as human beings. I do not want to be treated like this. What is the point in living in this miserable country when people like that make your life an utter hell. I might as well become a hermet on Mount Macachuchu and eat fish and bunnies for the rest of my life if that is what it is going to be like.

And then there are the FUCKING ASSHOLES that sit on the other side of the class (3 ft away). They just have to make these FUCKING comments that just make me want to tie them up and beat the living shit out of them, then take them into a tiny room and take a dull knife and peel away their skin slowly, making them suffer dearly. Then I'm gonna cook their skin and make them eat it. And then I'm going to take a tiny knife and plunge it into them over and over again in places where it will hurt but not make them die instanly or very soon. Their death will be long and drawn out. You see! THIS CLASS DRIVES ME CRAZY! THIS IS WHAT CREATES FUCKING CRAZY AND DISCUSTING MURDERERS. THIS IS THE REASON PEOPLE JUST CRACK AND START KILLING, MAKING THEIR VICTIMS SUFFER IN UNSPEAKABLE WAYS. DONT YOU UNDERSTAND? THIS WORLD WOULD BE JUST FINE MENTALLY IF IT WERENT FOR PEOPLE LIKE MR. MOTT OR THOSE DAMN ASSHOLES THAT I JUST WANT TO KILLLLLLLLLLL !!!!!!! >_O I'M SERIOUSLY CLOSE TO CRACKING. I HAVE ALREADY CRACKED INSIDE MY MIND. I really, really need some chocolate......chocolate will keep me calm. Must.....eat...chocolate before I go INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

............ kill...... kill.... kill..... stfu..... stfu...... kill.... blood.....bloood........ murder.... death... kill...... kill.... kill........... BLOOOOOOOOOD!
 
 
result-: enraged
 
 
yousei_awayuki
16 March 2005 @ 09:52 am
Well I seem to be having a strange day. I dyed my hair red....well it was suppose to be red but it sorta went jolly rancher pink. XD So I just decided to go with it and put on my Naruto headband to look like Sakura!.......okay well it was a happy day. Graphic Design sorta made it....bleh. Damn meetings..this one was okay but after everything went to shit. Sme guys are mad at me for throqing an M&M at them! FOR CHRISTS SAKE! It was a tiny little M&M, not like it really hurt them in any way. And also they expect me to listen to their crappy music but when I play mine that is actually tolerable they go and turn it off while they think Im not gonna notice. What dumbasses. I swear did god put jerks like them on this earth for his own entertainment or something. *chugs pepsi* Ahhh happiness! *takes out Jelly Belly's* More happiness! *rolls away to her little happy sugar high state of mind.......aka the gutter where she spends most of her time in a sugar high*
 
 
result-: bouncy
lovesong-: Play that Funky Music White Boy
 
 
yousei_awayuki
10 March 2005 @ 10:23 am
NINJAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!


.....<<.....>>.....I'm not hyper!
Candy that must be laced with narcotics:
1.Girl Scout Cookies
2.Jelly Belly's
3.Starburst
4.Shocktarts
5.Laughy Taffy
6.Push Pops
7.

*headbangs* Ninjas in the bushes!!!

NINJAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

Well today is gonna be a good day! I got DDR club today and I'm gonna dance...dance the night away! Weeeeeee! Man today is a good day. I am hyper, it is sunny, it is cool. TWITERPATION!!!

It has started. Save yourself!!!!!!

<<.....>>......I'm stopping now because I have gone mad!
 
 
result-: crazy
lovesong-: NINJA-School Band
 
 
yousei_awayuki
09 March 2005 @ 01:02 pm
Dashboard Confessional Lyrics.....I'm just bored!

The places you have come to fear the most


Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.

This is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please
everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by.

Hands Down

Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is
blessed you share with me this
night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they
race
from self control your legs are smooth
as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing
nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill
me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or
bury or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted,
just lay entwined here undiscovered.
Safe from the earth and all the stupid
questions..
"hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't
hear, so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill
me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My
heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever
remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your
fingers and
the time on the clock when we realized
it's so late and the walk that we shared
together.
The street was wet and the gate was locked
so I jumped it and let you in and you stood at
the door
with your hands on my waist and you kissed me,
but you meant it and I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it, that you meant it,
and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it.
 
 
result-: happy
 
 
yousei_awayuki
09 March 2005 @ 12:32 pm
Alas, a random survey which took years from my life in a span of 30 minutes.


SECTION 1: BASICS...]
+ Known as: Kassandra, Yousei, KC, Pepperoni, Bunny, Exploding pants girl..all I can remember!
+ Gender: Female
+ Age: 17....wishing I was 18 so I would be freeee!
+ Lives in: California
+ Birthday: October 29th
+ Shoe size: 9 and a half to 10....yes I know I have big feet shut the Hell Up!
+ Hair color: Blonde
+ Eye color: Blue...sometimes green and sometimes both
+ Style: I dont know! I'm a style of my own.
+ Fears: Heights, Rejection, Death, and the Future.

[ SECTION 2: HAVE YOU EVER...]
+ Fallen off the bed?: Hahahaha! I lost count after that one time I fell off hit my head, got up and collapsed cause my legs were asleep and then proceeded to hit my head again and pass out.
+ Fallen for a relative?: -_-....Ewwww.
+ Broke someone's heart?: One, but I didn't do it on purpose! ;_;
+ Had your heart broken?: Once or twice but I try to forget about it and focus on the good things in life..
+ Had a dream come true?: O.O When my dreams come true the whole world will be high off of the magic mushroom
+ Done something you regret?: Most people have, I'm no exceptipon
+ Cheated on a test?: <<....Maybe! But I'll never tell you! Nu uh!

[ SECTION 3: CURRENTLY... ]
+ Wearing?: Tank top, pants and a snowboard team sweatshirt.
+ Listening to?: My cat constantly licking herself. @_@
+ Reading?: The words I'm writing right now! You see this is what I'm reading at this very moment. Isnt that interesting...not.
+ Located?: On m bed! ^w^
+ Watching?: The blinding bright screeeeeeeeen!!! My eyes!!!!! *hiss* *burn* Aieee!
+ Should REALLY be doing?: Spoiling my cat and sleeping.
[ SECTION 4: DO YOU... ]
+ Brush your teeth?: Yes! O.O I'm no redneck.
+ Have any piercings?: Just my ears!!
+ Drive?: Have been for a few years unlike some people I know!
+ Believe in Santa Claus?: I always wonder. But after finding my santa letters from age 5 in my moms dresser really killed it for me.
+ Drink?: I only drank once and that was just weird. I hallucinated the wind! @_@
+ Got a cellphone?: Doesnt everyone these days.
+ Got a pager?: Those still exist?

[ SECTION 5: THE LAST PERSON YOU... ]
+ IMed?: Jocko(Nick/Ice)! ^w^ :X <3
+ Talked to on the phone?: Rachel
+ Yelled at?: My mom, for throwing my shirts in the drying so they shrink and she can throw them away.
+ Fell in love with?: Jocko!!! (Nick)

[ SECTION 6: PERSONAL... ]
+ What do you want to be when you grow up?: A Interior designer.
+ Best day: I cant really remember a best day, but I know I have good ones.
+ Worst Day: December 29, 2001-The day my dad was inches from death.(also my brothers birthday)
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?:Yes! :X Nick!
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: I think about my pillow!
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: Well if you count my animals then I have lost many in the past few years.
+ How many times have you fallen deeply in love?: Once and I still am in love.
+ Love your friends?: Ya! ^_^ I love em all!

[ SECTION 7: FAVORITE... ]
+ Movie: Moulin Rouge
+ Songs: Toxic, How you Remind Me, Why cant I?, Ice Ice Baby, and Big Butts.
+ Group: The list can go on forever, trust me.
+ Singers: Ewen McGregor
+ Store: Fashion Bug, Hot topic, Borders, A1 comics, and a few others.
+ Relative: My cousins!
+ Sport: Volleyball, Softball, Crab Soccer, Soccer, and Skiing.
+ Ice Cream Flavor:Chocolate Chip all the way! Ya babeh Ya!
+ Fruit: Oranges!
+ Candy: Pushpops!
+ Day of the Week: Friday
+ Time: 10 am
+ Color: Blue...blue...and did I forget blue! <<...I like it!
+ Name for a Girl: Araea
+ Name for a Boy: Tristan
+ Favorite spot for a date: A movie, a beach, a club, a dinner, under the stars...the options are limitless, like the stars in the sky.

[ SECTION 8: DO YOU... ]
+ Like to give hugs?: Hug ME!!!
+ Like to give kisses?: I've only given them to my family and my cats!
+ Like to walk in the rain?: The rain is calming when I dont want to keep dry.
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: I'm not picky
+ Like to travel?: Havent done much, and most of the time I just sleep.
+ Sleep on your side?: Yes, I have for a long time
+ Think you're attractive?: People keep telling me I am, but Im doubtful
+ Have a goldfish?: Never
+ Ever have the falling dream? Ya and it was that damned Styrofoam Avocado that made me fall too!
+ Have stuffed animals?: Many! ^_^ But they dont sleep on my bed since their too many!

[ SECTION 9: THIS OR THAT... ]
+ Pierced nose or tongue?: o.o
+ Single or taken?: Taken..o.O
+ MTV or BET?: MYV
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?: Never seen em!
+ Sugar or salt?: Sugar! Sugar! Sugar!
+ Silver or gold?: Silver.
+ Chocolate or flowers? Flowers, they are pretty and I wont eat em.
+ Color or Black-and-white photos?: Color
+ M&M's or Skittles?: M&M's all the way.
+ Stay up late or sleep in?: Stay up late.
+ Hot or cold?: Hot
+ Sun or moon?: Moon Awwwwoooooo!.
+ Left or Right?: Left
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend?: One best friend.
+ Mustard or ketchup?: Ketchup
+ Spring or Fall?: Spring!! Twiterpation!!!!!.
+ Happy or sad?: HappppY!
+ Wonder or amazement?: Amazement.
+ McDonald's or Burger King?: Burger King!
+ Mexican or Italian food?: Italian!! Go Spagettttiiiii.
+ Lights on or off?: Off...on....dont matter to me.
+ Candy or soda?: Soda.
+ Pepsi or Coke?: Pepsi rules over Cokes Assss!
 
 
result-: devious
lovesong-: Dashboard Confessional-Hands Down
 
 
yousei_awayuki
18 October 2004 @ 12:03 am
I don't know what to think anymore. My heart has been broken so many times that all the pieces are so minuscule that one needs a magnifying glass to view them. My whole view on a love was that I would know when it was true. But the false premonitions have led me to believe it to be true many times. Giving my whole heart into a relationship, my logic blind to all the obvious facts. I keep telling myself not to fall so easily, to keep up my guard and that love seems to not be visiting my door. But time and time again I give in to those feelings for which I hate and love so much. Yet again my heart gets broken smaller, and smaller. It feels as if my chest cavity is being broken open from the inside. The wretched tingling feeling that makes me want to cry out in anger and sadness. Making my eyes well up in tears, sending the moist, hot salt water streaming down my pink cheeks. At this very moment, my face is flaming red with frustration and sorrow. Why must I suffer so much just to get the one thing I truly want in life. I must go down a gruesome path, of many heartbreaks, and hopefully at the end is the one who can meld back together the pieces of my heart. But I must keep struggling with the misery, time and time again.
 
 
result-: melancholy
 
 
yousei_awayuki
14 July 2004 @ 01:23 am
Hmmm! Well this is odd!! Last night I had a really F-ed up dream! It wasn't like all my other ones, like Hypnotized bulls or a Styrofoam Avacado pushing me off the Grand canyon. Well my dream started off where I woke up and somehow I was PREGNANT!! How the F@#$ did that happen!? O_o? Well for some reason the paramedics came in and took me away speeding me to the hospital in the ambulance, even though I wasnt in labor only 6 months pregnant. Well I got to the hospital they threw me out and I got lost in the hospital corridors. Somehow I found myself walk through a door that led me to some rain forest place and I somehow ended up playing hide and go seek with Benji and Joel from Good Charlotte! Then the doors I had come through opened and all this bright light came streaming in and some guy I had never seen in my life was standing there! And then someone hit me on the head and I woke up!!.......Weird dream huh!! I wish it had been like the dream I had when I went to Planet Gunsmoke and got drunk with Wolfwood and Vash from Trigun! I love that dream!! (Don't worry! I'm insane) RIDE THE PIGGY!